I find myself feeling depressed lately. It’s holiday and get even worse. It’s so sad that you have to suffer flat feet and cannot run on treadmill and keep gaining weight. It’s so sad to do housework and hardly ever meeting friend. It’s so sad to keep practicing piano when you don’t even have a heart on it. And when it comes to college, I just don’t really feel to study. It’s true that you don’t have to do the things you like to walk on your life, but it’s a burden to me. Having a raised temperature at night and feeling weary whole day adding point moreover. Considering to put off my teaching job and hoping money from parents is really not independent, right? But I need the time, to focus on what I want to do all this time, practicing, and some free time to cure my mind. I find my nails scratching over my face and hurts me some time, but it’s okay cause I’m really cool. Ha ha
anw, happy chinese new year. today is the eve and I’ve planned to do some meditation but forget to bought colorful and scentful candles (ergh). I think I should just meditate in sleep.
Raised temperature won’t let me do anything anymore so I’ll just post this and get some sleep. Good night from Medan xoxo!
The (500) Days of Summer attitude of “He wants you so bad” seems attractive to some women and men, especially younger ones, but I would encourage anyone who has a crush on my character to watch it again and examine how selfish he is. He develops a mildly delusional obsession over a girl onto whom he projects all these fantasies. He thinks she’ll give his life meaning because he doesn’t care about much else going on in his life. A lot of boys and girls think their lives will have meaning if they find a partner who wants nothing else in life but them. That’s not healthy. That’s falling in love with the idea of a person, not the actual person.